How Our Thoughts Manifests

Good morning!!!

I just finished feeding Lynn with her pre-breakfast!!! This morning's menu was

• Yogurt with supplements
• 2 toasts (one with home-made strawberry jam, the other is with peanut butter)
• A banana
• A glass of water

I thought that now that we have momentum of her start eating from my hand, I wanted to start creating menu that would encourage her that. So, I started giving her toasts instead of oatmeal or cereal which I usually give her. So far it is well progressing!!!

Many people around us think that Lynn is old, is always sleeping and dying very soon, but I had a thought for a while that Lynn will actually get better. I don't know how much better she would get, but I know she will.

I see that in my thoughts. My thoughts are supported with faith and action. When these three start working together, miracle happens that most people may laugh at you nor believe you. That is where I am at right now. But, gradually I am recruiting (?) people who are seeing positive changes in Lynn!!! And, when collective thoughts together, more positive things are happening quicker!!!

I am working on my life the same way. I think, focus on what I want. Just start visualizing. Then, I got feeling that true freedom comes from within. How creative our mind can be. It does not matter what you have physically, our thoughts can attract what we ask for...

Anyway, that what I felt as I was walking this morning and decide to incorporate into my life more of!!!

Faith + Work = Miracle
Kazumi

Rebirth

There are seasons to everything. There is a season to celebrate, to focus on exercising, to study, to be in love, to get married, to move etc...

This post is not much about my care giving but more of my personal life the way it is...I feel I am getting in a season to preparing for new season.

After passing of my precious, loved one for a while ago, it's time to let go many "stuff" not "memories" for me to embrace new season.

So, I am in a process of letting go of many items...which is not really comfortable, I can tell you honestly... nor make sense...but, I know it is necessary as if it is part of rite of passage.

"Rebirth" sounds pretty exciting but the fact is that we as human are not easy to accept changes...ha ha ha

But, in order to accept something new, there must be space to welcome into my life.

Faith + Work = Miracle
Kazumi

Be A Positive Witness

Good morning! After the long stormy rain we had last night, it is very peaceful, calm, and cool morning!!! Love it!

Something exciting happened yesterday!

As a full time caregiver, I get to see how Lynn improves compare with a month ago because I see pretty much everything Lynn go through and I take care of her. But, most people don’t get to see her improvement because they may drop by ten minutes while she is sleeping so they assume that all she does is to sleep and waiting to be dead…Most of them don’t get to see her smile, how talkative she can be, and all that. Them, they just stop coming by…

Anyway, lately as I wave my hand to her, she starts waving her hand back to me. So, I was telling a nurse from a hospice service who comes to check on Lynn every two weeks yesterday and I waved Lynn to see if she would respond…
I wasn’t sure if she would do anything but the blessing happened. She gave us a big smile and waved her hands, not just one hand but both hands! This nurse was surprised. I was teasing this nurse one hand is for her and the other is for me!!!

It is so nice that people come and see Lynn actually get to witness positive things are happening instead of just hearing from my mouth. I personally believe sometimes we make others sick by us putting label on a “sick” person.” But, as we are open the possibility of the capacity and possibility of human being, we can help “sick” people get well!!!

So, thankful!!!

Faith + Work = Miracle
Kazumi

Personal Development Through Caregiving

Hello, people who are here to read this blog!!! Thank you for stopping by!

Recently, I am getting more and more convinced that care giving is not just a job but can be personal development for caregivers like me... Lynn (the woman I take care of)  may not say much, but giving me experiences to learn to develop my possibilities.

Since a few days ago, as I started giving Lynn a banana like the way we eat instead of giving her by a spoon, I have been excited. But, then, somehow fear kicked in today... For someone like her does not improve...that's the way the world look at...I got fear because maybe next bite she may completely stop eating a banana like we do...I hate to see that happen...

Then, in my brain,  start thinking should I stop giving her a banana like we eat before she quite, or what???

I knew that comes from FEAR and DOUBT...because it has not happened yet. And, even today, she ate it like the way we do...

As I was feeding Lynn, I got thinking, maybe, Lynn is teaching me to overcome my FEAR and DOUBT through her.



Just like the picture above said, fears are stories we create in our head. It has not happened yet, but what if...

I feel it is very practical wisdom not just for this instance but for my life in general right now. FEARS stop us from going to the next steps above.

When I catch myself feeling "FEAR and DOUBT," I need to make conscious effort to replace them with "FAITH and FAITHFUL ACTION." We may not see the result right away, these action added up to blossom!!!

Stop sabotaging our future success with our own fear and doubt. Let us make commitment to create success to flourish!

FAITH + WORK = MIRACLE
Kazumi

Starts From Baby Steps...

Good morning! I hope you had good night rest and ready for this wonderful new day!!! You never know what would happen as we are open to all possibilities!!!
I just finished feeding Lynn's breakfast. I needed to give her a banana as well to see if it were just pure lack that Lynn ate a banana like we do or she could still do it. You know, many Alzheimer's patients may do some amazing thing one moment and not do it after that at all.

It took some time but she did eat a banana just like we do! I'd rather taking time for her to eat as long as her eating style improves. This is like a exercise of eating.

But, as she ate one bite by one bite, I tell her that how much I am thankful and I stroke her head!!! And, even I sometimes say that eating is like facial exercise because of the facial muscle movement!

Right now, it's a baby step for her improvement. I also feel importance role I play...It requires me to shift my mind what is possible and adapt to this new changes we are going through. If I only expect the same old same old...I think Lynn would lose her chance to get any improvement...So, this is also a exercise for me to truly open to all possibilities. It is easier to be said than done...but I want to be a woman who can walk by what I say and believe!!!
Everything starts from baby steps!!!

Faith + Work = Miracle
Kazumi

Sooooo Exciting!!!

I was just so excited about how Lynn (the woman I take care of) ate a banana like we do. After the lunch, I wanted something to nibble on. I got an oatmeal chocolate chip cookie from a cookie jar and decided to go check on Lynn as I was about to eat the cookie.

As I entered into her bedroom, she was awake and saw me coming in which had not happened until a few weeks ago like this constantly... Anyway, she saw the cookie in my hand and I felt she wanted some...so I decided to let her eat the whole cookie from my hand without breaking into pieces.

Blessing! She ate the cookie like the way it was! I got so excited that I even brought her a piece of bread with peanut butter  on it and gave her from my hand as well. As you may imagine, she ate it the way it was. It took longer for her to eat this way because it requires her to open her mouth voluntary instead of pushed the food into her mouth by a spoon...but, I am happier that she eats from my hand. That's progress. I love it!!!

Faith + Work = Miracle
Kazumi

Eating a Banana With Style

Eating a banana is not much of what we think of. We just grab a banana, peel it, and open our mouth and eat it like the picture!

But, when it comes to the woman I take care of (I call her Lynn here), it's totally different. Six month ago, I was almost forcing her to eat a tiny bit of banana on a spoon... sad, but true...About 4 months ago, she started eating a slice of banana on a spoon with kind of willing. About 2 months ago, she voluntary opened her mouth to eat a slice of banana on a spoon.

Today, I just got strong feeling that she can eat banana like we do if I just hold on to the banana. Then, if she couldn't, I could just go back to regular way to feed her a banana.

Guess, what! She starts eating a banana like we do! She opened her mouth big enough so that whole diameter of banana was able to fit! So, exciting!!!
I was telling Lynn how excited I am! How thankful I am! I don't know if she understood what I said but I could tell for sure our heart/ spirit communicated enough I felt joy we shared! I was so happy that I was even telling her "that's the way to eat a banana with style!" Ha ha ha...

Most people around her are still unbelief that she would ever get any better. But, her recovery is REAL. I get to she her recovery because I am the one who spend most of tome with her. Now, I am getting positive support from her husband who starts seeing her recovery!

Once upon a time, someone said something like...
"Success is a moving target," and "Success of Roma was not done in a day." I think it goes to the same way to the recovery process. Small steps all add up!!!

Faith + Work = Miracle
Kazumi